Archive for May, 2009

Sugasm #166: play

May 27, 2009 Leave a comment

HNT courtesy of Coquitten.

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #167? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks

Bare-Assed Cheek (2): Punishment and Reward
“His finger glides up the inner side of my left thigh.”

Lilly’s Turn – Part 1: Wherein a Power Play is Made
“I asked her, outright, if she considered herself submissive.”

“Exquisite pain heralding exquisite surrender.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Is Sasha Grey going mainstream?

Sugasm Editor
A Difficult Scenario

Editor’s Choice
Just Looking

Read more…

Categories: links, sugasm

HNT: Show and Tell

May 21, 2009 1 comment

This is more of a show-and-tell than an actual HNT, but you can see a couple naked fingers with spectacularly bad cuticles.  Also, due some equally bad planning, I am out one camera battery charger, so I am back to using my little point and shoot for the time being.

After over a month of waiting and grumbling about international shipping, I finally got my hemp rope from Rawganique! I spent a night washing and drying the rope, then another day burning the fuzzies off with a homemade alcohol lamp in my studio, rewashing, and then drying the rope under tension.

I purchased a one kilogram spool and got roughly 124 feet, so I cut the rope into two 30s, one 50, and the leftover I kept as a short 14′.  I finished all the rope with palm and needle whipping except for one 30 that I ended with double wall knots.
I’m not going to oil or dye the hemp though.  I like the way it feels now, and it’ll soften with use.  Though I am still on the fence about the distinct and still-strong barnyard smell.

Mmmm, rope.  Rope rope rope.  I think I’m in love…

Speaking of love, I have been reorganizing sidebar links and adding to the much-outdated blogrolls.  I’ve been on the prowl for sexy art sites, and the results make me swoon with artlust:

There is the newly released and scintillating site F/lthy Gorgeous Th/ings; the photo-tumblr-blogs Le Chagrin, Male Submission Art, SubstratuM, and Synthetic Pubes; and two sweet and erotic art-blogs, @mateurdart and Sex in Art.  Finally there’s French photographer Freddy Rapin.  Go take a look-see at these gorgeous, sexy, visually orgasmic places.  And I’m always, always open to finding more sites of similar quality and composition, so send recommendations my way!

I’m off to lie in the sun and play with my rope.

Categories: art, firsts, links, love, photos wish-list

May 15, 2009 5 comments

So there is a contest going on over at, and I’ve finally compiled my own entry to submit.  The idea is to create a wishlist composed of products offered on the sponsor’s site, totalling no more than $1000.  I built my list using a few general principles: toys that are light and travel-friendly, innocuous-looking, aesthetically pleasing, and practical.  There are also just a few I’m very curious about.  All in all, the sum of the wishlist doesn’t come close to $1000, but I can only assume the contest isn’t about trying to get as close to that number as possible, but building an ideal personal toy collection.  So, here is mine:

  1. Smart Balls: I’ve always been a fan of Fun Factory’s products for their quality and fun, quirky approach to making toys, and together with the desire to practice Kegels more often, these Smart Balls are a perfect addition to my toy bag.
  2. ELISE white vibrator: I admit, when I first started making my wishlist, that I wanted to fill it all with LELO products, but in the end limited it to my top three, starting with this beautiful, white, rechargeable vibrator.
  3. GIGI Deep Rose: I have been searching for my ideal G-spot vibrator since I have a very sensitive G-spot, and this is a top contender that I simply have never been able to test out for myself.
  4. LILY Black: Besides being a LELO product (and thus rechargeable and waterproof), I’ve added the LILY for its beautiful shape, miniature size, and matte black finish.
  5. OhMiBod: Ever since I first read of the OhMiBod through the Lazy Geisha, I’ve been curious about this music-driven vibrator.
  6. Maximus Personal Lubricant: I’ve only ever used Astroglide, but after trying Maximus lube a couple times, I’m definitely switching over!
  7. Bondage tape: Besides fulfilling the light and innocuous guidelines I set for myself, I love bondage tape for its multiple uses and possibilities for use in fetish photography.
  8. Nipple clamps jaws with chain: I both hate and love nipple play, since they are both sensitive and tolerant of pain (mostly), and I’ve only ever used clothespins on them, so I’d like to try out my first set of nipple clamps!
  9. Trojan Magnum Thin 12 pack: One can never have enough condoms, and for whatever reason, I have a track record of being with larger-than-average sized partners, so this is a definite must.
  10. Trojan Regular 36 pack: But, just to show that I am no size queen, I also like keeping plenty of regular condoms on hand too.
  11. Bendybeads: Another Fun Factory toy I’ve been eyeing, as I am interested in anal bead play both for myself and with a partner.
  12. MicroFibre Top and Panties: I couldn’t resist adding something that is so cute and in a style I enjoy, not to mention the fact that I am always running out of underwear and own almost no bras.
  13. Kama Sutra Massage Oil: I find massage to be a very intimate and bonding experience, and enjoy giving massages to friends, family, and lovers; I don’t usually use oils, and am eager to try out Kama Sutra’s “Healing Blend” oil.
  14. Black Cotton Rope: Ever since rediscovering my love of rope bondage a few months back, I have been eager to build up a respectable stock of rope for both others to use on me and for me to practice my ties on any willing victi – I mean partners.
  15. Mini Whip Paddle: Spank me if this isn’t the smallest, cutest whip I’ve ever seen!
  16. Poly Rod: I was drawn to this cane as soon as I clicked on the link, and it promises to be sexy, indestructable, and to make your sub beg for mercy (that would be me).
  17. Fetish Fantasy Series Kit: I admit I picked this as much for the bag as for the delightful array of toys inside, because no toy collection is complete without a travel bag, and I’ve already made sure everything on this list is travel-friendly, dammit.
  18. Hitachi Magic Wand: Believe it or not, I don’t own a Hitachi, and I actually deliberated whether or not to put this on here since it is the bulkiest item and requires an outlet to operate, but, really, it is such a fantastic vibrator that I decided to include it, making it the 5th vibrator on this list.

Total: $879.02

And here is a link to the contest rules.  Fingers crossed!

Categories: links, sundry

HNT: peak

May 14, 2009 4 comments


Peaks and valleys: all part of the landscape of my body.  It’s been a long journey getting to know this terrain with such intimacy – there was a point in my life where I couldn’t bear looking at myself naked in the mirror.  Now, it seems, I am at the opposite end of the spectrum: when I take a shower, I strip in front of the bathroom vanity, fascinated at my reflection, turning this way and that to see how the muscles stretch and move, where folds appear and vanish, and, more recently, what new marks and bruises I’ve acquired.

And, of course, all of this photography.

It is all so narcissistic; sometimes I revisit old posts and feel my face flush with embarrassment at my brazen self-obsession.  Other times, I am again drawn, fascinated, to a body that is simultaneously foreign and familiar to me.  I find myself staring at my hands, palms, fingers – the way tendons link bone to muscle – in plain wonderment at their ingenious engineering.

It must be the dreariness and rain that has got me in such a somber, reflective mood.  I crave desert and dry sunshine.  I feel the wanderlust growing like an itch in my tailbone.

It’s time to get a move-on.

Categories: photos, reflection


May 10, 2009 24 comments

“Let’s play” he says, all grin and glinting canines.  My reaction is instinctual: survival.  I lunge for his throat, for the thick jugular full of life and heat, biting down on skin and heartbeat before he can do the same.  As teeth graze skin and I taste sweat and musk along my tongue, I wish for claws over these weak cuticles, for the ability to sink down into flesh, deep to the bone, to carve my presence there.  So he never forgets.

But already I feel the vibrations of his laughter against my tongue, and he lifts me bodily, still attached to him by the throat, fingers pressing between the bars of my ribs.  I bite harder to tease out the russet taste of his body, while his fingers move north to find my own snappable neck, oblivious to my hands grappling against his wrists.

Squeeze, and white flares out against the edges of my vision.

Squeeze harder, and my jaw goes slack, desire for air overpowering desire for flesh.  I forcefeed tiny gulps of wheezing air down a constricted larynx, but it is not enough to extinguish the sunbursts in my skull.

The final, sputtering moan that escapes through my swollen tongue is not of my own doing, but rather milked from each air-deprived cell of my body, fed up to his hungry ears, drawn out by his thumbs pressed close to my vocal chords, and I don’t have enough oxygen in my lungs to thank him (Thank you, thank you, thank you; but the bridge between mind and voice has crumbled) for this hard-earned euphoria.

And in an instant it is over, gone: nothing pressing against my airway, no fingers laced like wire around my throat.  Air rushes into the vacuum of my lungs faster than I can gasp.  As I lie there panting, I see only his wild grin coming into focus, and his voice coos, low in my ear, “Now, wasn’t that fun?”

HNT: Suspension

May 7, 2009 Leave a comment


Lovely photograph and suspension courtesy of Dov

Dov sent me the photos he took of me during the bondage workshop from last weekend.  It’s great to be able to see the ropework from a third-person perspective, and besides admiring the gorgeous tie in this photograph, I just love the shadows against the wall.

Categories: art, links, photos